Still Sick and Getting Fed Up – Penniless Parenting

I wish this wasn’t the update I had for y’all. I wish my update for y’all was “Yay, everyone, I’m back to normal, fit as a fiddle and healthy again”. But my body has other plans.

This is day 9 of my being sick. The Sunday of our trip to Italy I started coming down with breathing issues… it is currently Monday a week later and I’m still sick. Yes, I am already loads better, but I am getting frustrated by how long it is taking me to get better.

The first day home I went to the doctor because breathing hurt me and was diagnosed with pneumonia and put on antibiotics, steroids, a nebulizer, and a cough medicine, and I finished the antibiotics and steroids and am able to breathe loads better now. I don’t feel short of breath, nothing hurts when I breathe, I can even walk a short distance to pick up a rental car (my car is still in the shop after the insurance dealt with it post accident but I should be getting it back within the next few days). 

However, I still have a cough, I still am more tired than usual, and my brain gets foggier quicker than usual.

I managed to catch up on my 2 college classes that I missed while gone and while sick, and even managed to concentrate enough to do some of my statistics homework.

But I am very stressed out still because this coming Monday I have to retake my college final from last semester since the exam that I took online accidentally didn’t get graded because I somehow sent in the wrong file, which means now I need to do it when the material is less fresh in my head and my brain isn’t at peak capabilities. Even studying right now seems beyond me.

I’m trying to bite off a little bit at a time, a few hours at a time, a few errands at a time. I’m doing physical therapy because all this coughing is messing with my spine big time thanks to my EDS; my spine feels like it is one massive bruise, making me scream in pain. In between each errand I try to rest, but I feel like I’m constantly letting everyone down. My to do list is still miles long and it isn’t getting any shorter. It’s really hard.

It’s challenging to feel like I’m constantly letting everyone down, which makes me feel like I’m going to fail at everything, which causes my mental health to spiral. 

I’m trying to remind myself that rest is what I need, that it isn’t unheard of to still be sick 9 days later, and that as long as there is improvement that is good. I just hope that there’s enough improvement that my final exam doesn’t get negatively affected by this virus or whatever it is.

I’ll gladly take any prayers or well wishes or good vibes or whatever you believe in. Thanks!

P.S. My kids are also getting sick but they are just sick for a few days and then better and not nearly as sick as I was…